I gotta keep it real around here.
Lately, I am getting all kinds of stressed. Searching for a new job and currently being unemployed is not helping.
See, the problem is, I have always been a planner. Deadlines are kinda my thing. Crazy, I know, but its what keeps me motivated. I like to know when I plan to make changes or when things are gonna happen. I even plan about planning, its ridiculous. In everyday life I am pretty laid-back but internally I have to admit I'm a little high-strung.
But while I work best being under deadlines and having my plan in motion, it also makes me stressed. The problem is that there are a lot of BIG things I want in my life right now... a new house, a baby, a new career. And that is a lot happening all at once. A lot of really big things actually.
And I feel like the longer it takes me to find a job, the more I feel like my timeline is going to get pushed back... even if it doesn't matter. The things are gonna happen when they happen.
I literally just finished school a month ago. I have to calm down. I know these things will happen. I just have to stop wanting them to have happened yesterday.
My yoga teacher says when you feel negative thoughts coming in you should say to yourself:
"Just breathe. Just be."
Maybe that's what I need to do.
Everyday isn't all puppy dogs and rainbows. I just had to get that off my chest.